Nicole

Nicole

24 years old
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Going to sleep yet again without my love next to me, but feeling so incredibly loved that I have such a wonderful man that loves me unconditionally. So much that i can feel his love from 100 miles away :) Good night ladies xox
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    Ro ❤ CoFounder/President
    Ro ❤ SPWF Owner/CoFounder/CEO commented on Nicole's picture.
    Your heart must have melted when you read that letter. So sweet... So happy you're smiling
    2 years ago
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    Misty
    Squeek - staff member/moderator commented on Nicole's picture.
    Aw! I've got a letter like that too!
    2 years ago
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    Nicole
    Nicole Going to sleep yet again without my love next to me, but feeling so incredibly loved that I have such a wonderful man that loves me unconditionally. So much that i can feel his love from 100 miles away :) Good night ladies xox
    2 years ago
    • Almo
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      Almo me too. it's so magical how we can feel thier spirit...i can almost hear him whisper to me lots of little things thru out our day and feel his leg thrown over my hip at night holding me close. my papi, i love him so!
      2 years ago
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    Nicole
    Nicole commented on Nicole's picture.
    aww i know! they're amazing!
    2 years ago
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    mrsk97279
    mrsk97279 commented on Nicole's picture.
    AWE!!! those sweet letters always make my day!!
    2 years ago
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    Nicole
    Nicole Alright, let's hope and pray this visiting day goes wayyyyy smoother than the other one. Wish me luck, girls! Thank you all so much for your help and support. It seriously means the world to me!!
    2 years ago
    • Alu
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      Alu enjoy your visit 😊
      2 years ago
    • Samie
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      Samie Hugs & Positive thoughts :) Enjoy !
      2 years ago
    • Jen
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      Jen Good luck!!
      2 years ago
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    Nicole
    Nicole Ladies, I really need some help. So I got falsely accused at the facility my boyfriend is at. Read my past status to understand what I'm talking about. Well, today i'm talking to him and he tells me the CO that found the candy wrapper in my pocket, told random visitors and COs that I was trying to smuggle in weed. Now, I know none of you truly know me, but i am anti anything illegal. I follow the rules to a T. Being searched and stuff for a simple candy wrapper in my pocket is one thing, but to have the Correctional officer spread lies about what happen is something TOTALLY different. That is completely unprofessional and extremely immature. Are they even allowed to talk about certain things? I want to do something about it. I've had my breaking point with these COs and how they treat me and this crossed the line. Does anyone have any idea on what I should do or if theres anything I can do about it? If anyone from Michigan could especially help me out, that would be great. But I feel this has gone too far. I'm scared to go on Monday because i feel they're going to treat me worse than they already do :(. I cant take this anymore.... Please someone help.
    2 years ago
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    • Jen
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      Jen Good luck tomorrow Nicole! I'm just reading this now as I had a crazy busy day yesterday. I'm sorry, I forgot that he has life, maybe ask the lifer group their suggestions. I feel that maybe you do have the opportunity to create change, I don't want to make the wrong suggestions because of course I'm new to all this, but with that being the case, and him moving shortly, maybe you can be the chariot of change. Enjoy your visit tomorrow!!
      2 years ago
    • Jen
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      Jen Good morning Nicole, What you have gone through in the last few days is horrible, not to mention you're in this situation to start off with. This is a sticky one, I am much like you, however, I know that in this situation I'm sometimes will have to just accept how things are. You could seek legal advise yourself for slander, it is completely inappropriate for anyone to make false accusations of you; especially in a position of authority. Now, this is the sticky part, I don't remember off my head how much time your guy has left, if you do this, life will get extremely hard for your guy. Let's face it, he's still going to be there when you kick up a fuss. He will deal with the aftermath. I would highly suggest in this situation, bite your tongue, write everything down, dates, names, etc, and move forward on this, once your guy is released. I'm so sorry to hear this is happening to you, xoxo
      2 years ago
    • Jen
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      Jen Remember, showering them with being polite and kind is the high road, don't let them see it fazes you, you are STRONG!
      2 years ago
    • Nicole
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      Nicole Thank you so much for your input Jen! I truly appreciate it. Just the past 2 years I've felt i was treated differently and now I know its going to get so much worse. I don't believe this Correction officer should get away with lying about something as major as trying to smugggle drugs. I felt this specific CO never liked me to begin with for some reason and she's trying to make my time over there difficult. It's so crazy how i feel i live 2 lives. The life i live out here.. all free, and then one in there, where i'm hated and judged all the time. Right now, he's not coming home. He has life without parole but I'm trying to change that as much as I can. Im just battling between reporting it because of how disgusting the lie is, or just letting it go and putting up with the COs treating me differently and him differently. Either way, we lose kind of and we're going to be treated horribly. he's moving levels very soon so maybe when he does that, I'll deal with different officers.
      2 years ago
    • Queen Afrika
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      Queen Afrika Hello Nicole. I agree with Jen! Bite your tongue, take notes of (BS behavior), and most of all use your manners when you see the CO's while visiting your man! The yes sir, yes ma'am thing works wonders! Don't let them see that you are easily fazed by this...take your notes as to what happened on that day, take your notes and focus on helping your man be a free man! Those immature CO's are below you! You are a strong woman right? Of course you are! Put on your boots and hang in there for your man! You don't want to complain while he's still in there doing time because like Jen said...it could make his time a lot worse. Maybe when he's out, you can file all the complaints you want girl. Right now...play it off to the CO's when you see them as if this didn't happen. You are better than that! At least you were not banned from visiting for a certain time! Remain strong! It's messed up what they did...but keep it moving. -Queen
      2 years ago
    • tgirl2ya
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      tgirl2ya First of all it is very unprofessional as well as inappropriate for a C.O. to spread lies about a situation. Even if it was true he still has no right and then to get back to your man. Do you know how that could cause alot of chaos on the yard/floor with the inmates. Because you know if any of them say anything about you out of the way to your man he is going to defend you and there we go. He gets in trouble because of the lack of integrity this officer showed. And they have things that are suppose to be kept confidential. Did you get the C.O.'s name? I would report it to the warden and let him know the whole story and what your hunni said that was going around the prison and you didn't appreciate it!
      2 years ago
    • Nicole
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      Nicole Exactly. That is one of my concerns is that people will say stuff to him and then it just blows up. But luckily, the inmates have seen me many times in the visiting room and all they have said about me is very positive things and very nice. So hopefully they know that this C.O was lying. It'll show with me coming on Monday. If i had any drugs with me, I'd be banned either for life, or for months on end. Yeah I know the C.O's name. This isn't the first time she's done something shady with me. She once told this new C.O to watch out for me and I haven't done anything for her to say something like that. I want to tell the warden just so i can get the C.O's to back off of me. I have the proof she said things to visitors about me so I just need their names and numbers and my boyfriend will be working on that today. So yeah i think i will say something. It cant be unsaid. It cant get worse than it already is.
      2 years ago
    • Nicole
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      Nicole I don't think it'll make things worse with my man. If it will, ill keep filing complaints until it stops :/. I just have to do something about it.
      2 years ago
    • Queen Afrika
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      Queen Afrika Hey! Good luck girlie! Why do they pick on you anyway? To me, you seem like a nice lady?
      2 years ago
    • Nicole
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      Nicole I couldn't tell you :/. maybe they get a sense that i'm pretty naive and don't do anything wrong so they try to stir me up? I really have no clue. Thank you so much xoxo
      2 years ago
    • Jen
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      Jen Good luck tomorrow Nicole! I'm just reading this now as I had a crazy busy day yesterday. I'm sorry, I forgot that he has life, maybe ask the lifer group their suggestions. I feel that maybe you do have the opportunity to create change, I don't want to make the wrong suggestions because of course I'm new to all this, but with that being the case, and him moving shortly, maybe you can be the chariot of change. Enjoy your visit tomorrow!!
      2 years ago
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    Nicole
    Nicole Ladies, it's always something. I got denied my visit because they found a Hershey's kisses wrapper in my back pocket. I started to cry because I felt attacked as they told me they were going to talk to the Sargent or something. It was a wrapper... But they tried to explain to me that drugs get in on a daily basis. They were doing normal procedures. They said they know I'm a good girl... She even to me she listens to my phone calls which was unsettling to me. But I still got denied. I took off work for this. I lost money in gas and in pay today. I'm so beyond hurt and sad. I've been bawling my eyes out. Today sucks :(
    2 years ago
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    • Nicole
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      Nicole Amen MsHeaven!! Thank you for reminding me of the devil and his evil works!!! he wants me to have these people get to me so I won't want to go back. But I have to remain strong. And yep. 90% of the time it's the COs doing all the illegal stuff. I've heard many stories of that. I won't let the enemy win that's for sure. Thank you so much!
      2 years ago
    • Mu'at Vulu
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      Mu'at Vulu Im so sorry that happen to you! I hope you get the chance to see him soon. Take Care!
      2 years ago
    • Samie
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      Samie They really do give you Crap? Is it any wonder they judge you for his crime?
      2 years ago
    • AmyJo
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      AmyJo I am so sorry they are giving you such a hard time about every little thing. My baby was at that facility for a while and he said the C.O.s are awful over there. It sounds like they are being absolutely ridiculous. :(
      2 years ago
    • Jess
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      Jess i'm so sorry that this happened to you. i have been to a prison on a visit before where drugs were so bad in there. I hope that everything works out and that they don't take away visits for something so little
      2 years ago
    • Wifey for Life ~ Gina
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      Wifey for Life ~ Gina I'm so sorry, but you have to understand the rules are there and they have to follow them. It's a good reminder for all of us that nothing can go in and to check, double check, and triple check our pockets. Stay strong and hopefully next visit is much better!
      2 years ago
    • Jen
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      Jen I'm so sorry to hear that, you must be heartbroken. Thank you for sharing, I will definitely be double checking any pockets from now on. When do you get to see him next?
      2 years ago
    • Queen Afrika
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      Queen Afrika Sorry about that girlie. When's the next visit?
      2 years ago
    • tgirl2ya
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      tgirl2ya I am sorry for that. I do understand that prison has rules and I know that drugs are bad in there but didn't you say that they denied you your visit because they found a hersehey kiss wrapper in your back pocket? I don't know you were denied because it was obvious that the wrapper was empty. For Gods sake you ate it! If you had something a little bit more illegal or residue from a drug in it I guarantee you would not be up here typing you would be in a cell somewhere with a drug charge. I think they overreacted. I hope everything works out for you! Stay strong sis!
      2 years ago
    • His Love Is Magic
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      His Love Is Magic That's such bullshit, I swear those people treat us like we're the inmates too sometimes when some of us are legit good girls who work, follow the rules, and don't break the law. I've been denied visit for dumb shit too, I know how u feel. I'm soo sorry u wasted gas and lost money for not working, I really hate that u hadto go thru that bullshibullshit
      2 years ago
    • Nicole
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      Nicole Thank you guys so much :( I believe they completely overreacted and I'm probably going to talk to the warden about it. They didn't find anything in the wrapper but said that some people may do test runs to see what they can get away with I don't know. I was so offended and hurt. I understand they have rules but my gosh if I forget to throw a candy wrapper out of my pocket you can't condemn me for that. It sound more ridiculous as I talk about it. But thank you you guys. I appreciate your support so very much. I'm seeing him Monday for a holiday visit that's like 3 hours compared to the 6-9 hrs we usually get bit after today id be happy to see him for 5 minutes :(. Again thank you guys. The support means so much to me!!
      2 years ago
    • Nicole
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      Nicole I know they judge me for his crime. They have to. I've seen people get away with so much and the COs don't bat an eye. All eyes are on me. Buy my boyfriend didn't do the crime he was accused of but they don't care obviously. So they treat me totally different. I want to talk to someone about this but I don't know who.
      2 years ago
    • Mu'at Vulu
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      Mu'at Vulu SMH... Them CO's are a mess. Especially at USP Atwater. Its like they try and upset you to make you not want to come back. They claim to be like that, because no matter what they do, something illegal is going to get through on visiting day. Back in March when I went for a visit, they were conducting car searches before they allowed people to even enter the parking lot. If a person didnt get pass the car search, they couldnt visit the "inmate". I dont know how it goes where your loved one is, but do file a grievance, make a complaint or something. I hate to hear and read about situations like this, because I have seen CO's in action and sometimes it be so over the top and unnecessary. Just like the dress code. They let some people in with "not permitted" clothing on and they send some people home or to change, that have on similar clothing. It can be rough when your the spouse of a known inmate. Hoping today is a better day for you.
      2 years ago
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      Nicole That's what happens to me! There was one time my "cleavage" was showing in the angle where the cameras were. But it was only slightly visible when I bent over. I have no choice but to since the tables are so low. They almost kicked me out for that. And then maybe 30 minutes later I see a woman with major cleavage just walking in the visiting room with no issue. I don't know why 2 years later they still aren't getting off my back but it's getting really ridiculous. I now have to keep an eye on the COs name and the dates certain things happen or else I won't be able to do anything about it if I report it with no names or dates or times. But I'll definitely remember this one. Over a stupid Hershey's kisses wrapper.... It's insane.
      2 years ago
    • Jess
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      Jess they aren't judging you for his crime, you have to understand that people sneak this stuff in regularly and they are just doing their job. If he was at Macomb you would understand. They have overdoses all the time because the CO's there aren't doing their job of catching people. I'm not saying you were trying to sneak anything in but they have a job to do. Just because we think they are judging us or judging him sometimes it's not true. I have plenty of friends who are CO's and its just their job. Just like you have a job to do, they do as well.
      2 years ago
    • Nicole
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      Nicole They opened it up and saw there was nothing in it. I've gone there for 2 years with zero issues. All I'm going to say is that they overdid it. It was a candy wrapper. But thanks for your input
      2 years ago
    • MsHeaven
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      MsHeaven In reality the people getting illegal drugs, weapons, cell phones and other contraband are the COs themselves. And its no secret they treat us like criminals just because we are coming to visit inmates. Some of them take the authority to the head, just like any other position. Its sickening, but just another hurdle we have to get over. The enemy will try and use people to break us down, but we must remember we have the victory and he is a liar. I hope all goes well Nicole. Stay strong and keep your head up girly!
      2 years ago
    • Nicole
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      Nicole Amen MsHeaven!! Thank you for reminding me of the devil and his evil works!!! he wants me to have these people get to me so I won't want to go back. But I have to remain strong. And yep. 90% of the time it's the COs doing all the illegal stuff. I've heard many stories of that. I won't let the enemy win that's for sure. Thank you so much!
      2 years ago
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    Nicole
    Nicole Visiting day today!!! Yay I'm soooo excited :) :) :). Hope you all have a great day
    2 years ago
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    Nicole
    "Nicole" commented on Nicole's Blog "COs just get on my last nerve sometimes.".
    Yeah my boyfriend will be going down to level 2 soon I believe so hopefully that'll make it easier and they back off of me :/
    2 years ago
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    Nicole
    Nicole has accepted Jess's friend request.
    2 years ago
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    Jess
    "Jess" commented on Nicole's Blog "COs just get on my last nerve sometimes.".
    Yes I am from Michigan I have 3 friends in Michigan locked up one at Ojibway,the other is at Central Michigan Correctional and the other is at Bellamy as well in the highest level. Haven't heard to much bad things about the lower level ones but, ...
    2 years ago
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    Nicole
    Nicole commented on Ro ❤ SPWF Owner/CoFounder/CEO's Video.
    Beautiful!
    2 years ago
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    Nicole
    "Nicole" commented on Nicole's Blog "COs just get on my last nerve sometimes.".
    They take away a visiting day if you go to the bathroom an extra time?? That's stupid. They have such crazy rules here. It's okay. I just don't get why they're picking on me. Not to sound all judgmental or whatever, but comparing me to some of the ...
    2 years ago
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    Nicole
    "Nicole" commented on Nicole's Blog "COs just get on my last nerve sometimes.".
    Yay! Someone from Michigan haha Hes at Bellamy Creek Correctial in Ionia
    2 years ago

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Hello! My name is Nicole. I have known my boyfriend since I was 13 years old. He has been the love of my life ever since. Unfortunately he got himself into an awful situation and as of right now, he has life without parole :(. But I'm hoping and praying that the sentence changes. I'm not giving up on this. I do have some support, but of course not as much as I'd hope to have. Im so thankful I found a website like this and hopefully I can get a bit more support. For anyone who needs to talk, I am only a message away!

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    by Jo_Reed 2 years ago
    Girl, it JUST clicked for me! LOL! Welcome BACK! :)
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    by Admin JoJo Matthews 2 years ago
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