Admin LaSann

Admin LaSann

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Yesterday was the half way point.... And life has changed so much since he's been gone.

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    Admin LaSann
    Admin LaSann Yesterday was the half way point.... And life has changed so much since he's been gone.
    1 month ago
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    Admin LaSann
    Admin LaSann Saturday is visit day for my college student and Sunday and visit day for the husband... I guess this is my visit weekend
    2 months ago
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    Admin LaSann Hubby is getting fussy because I haven't emailed him in a few days.... Dude when you called I was having a hard time staying awake. I swear he forgets how pain meds make me sleep. I think he also forgets I just had surgery. Ok.... That's my rant.. Guess I'll go email him now
    3 months ago
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    • kkadam
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      kkadam So true twinkle, admin. Lasann just explain to him what all you are dealing with, and that you are still there for him, but when you take your meds it's over, lol. Adam used to be the same till he tried talking to me after I took my sleep meds it scared him cause I feel asleep on the phone and he couldnt wake me, our 3 year old granddaughter came and got the phone and talked to him till the phone shut off.
      3 months ago
    • Tommie
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      Tommie What you ranted on here, he needs to know too, put that inside his email or the next one you plan on sending out okay.. Good luck, love ya, Tommie~~~.
      3 months ago
    • twinkle
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      twinkle Sometimes I think they see us as their pillars of strength and forget that we can't always be superwoman :)
      3 months ago
    • kkadam
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      kkadam So true twinkle, admin. Lasann just explain to him what all you are dealing with, and that you are still there for him, but when you take your meds it's over, lol. Adam used to be the same till he tried talking to me after I took my sleep meds it scared him cause I feel asleep on the phone and he couldnt wake me, our 3 year old granddaughter came and got the phone and talked to him till the phone shut off.
      3 months ago
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    Admin LaSann
    Admin LaSann Sleeping the days away. .. It's good for my body right now!
    3 months ago
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    Admin LaSann
    Admin LaSann Sinus surgery went well.. Pain is at a min (or in just on top of the meds). Wishing I was asleep..
    3 months ago
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    Admin LaSann
    Admin LaSann Sinus surgery went well.. Pain is at a min (or in just on top of the meds). Wishing I was asleep..
    3 months ago
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    Admin LaSann
    Admin LaSann has accepted Kienast Girl 's friend request.
    3 months ago
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    Admin LaSann
    Admin LaSann has accepted Mrs. Ciancanelli's friend request.
    3 months ago
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    Admin LaSann has accepted Jekaroo0217's friend request.
    3 months ago
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    Admin LaSann
    Admin LaSann It's Monday! I hope you all have a great day
    7 months ago
    • Jekaroo0217
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      Jekaroo0217 Wishing it was Sunday already 😞
      7 months ago
    • Mandee
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      Mandee Woke up to his voice!!! Best way to start the week
      7 months ago
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    Admin LaSann
    Admin LaSann Short visit... Now I miss him more than ever
    7 months ago
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    Admin LaSann
    Admin LaSann Excited to see babe tomorrow morning... Sad I can't stay all weekend
    7 months ago
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    Admin LaSann
    Admin LaSann Taking my MIL to see her son for her 1st contact visit (tomorrow). She's hasn't hugged her son in almost 3 years. Hopefully this makes them both better. He's angry with her because she isn't treating our son and I with respect... But that's my battle. I love him and I pray he's on his best behavior... I'm the one with a 6hr drive back! Lol
    7 months ago
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      twinkle I hope you enjoy your visit. The contact visit might change the dynamic completely and make everything good again :)
      7 months ago
    • Admin LaSann
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      Admin LaSann Thanks twinkle
      7 months ago
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    Admin LaSann Under the 3 yr left! 2 y 11m 28 days is way better than 3y
    7 months ago
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    • Tabby
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      Tabby Yes, everyday down counts! Looking forward to the day I will be able to say we're that close!
      7 months ago
    • Sam
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      Sam Yayy! We are just under 2 years- just about 21 months which is so much better than 2 years haha
      7 months ago
    • TagsGirl82
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      TagsGirl82 Yay!! So happy for you = )
      7 months ago
    • Tabby
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      Tabby Yes, everyday down counts! Looking forward to the day I will be able to say we're that close!
      7 months ago

About

In 2008 I met an amazing man. He was everything I could have wanted in a friend and lover. Our children blended immediately and we were the happy family we all needed. We were marred in 2009 on Thanksgiving weekend. Our lives were going in such a great direction. Our boys were leaders in church, our pastors really depended upon J and I spent every Sunday in the nursery. In 2013 our personal relationships started to fall apart...and 2014 was when it really started effecting our marriage. One of his brothers who was a pastor at one of the churches out west came back to Georgia and basically kicked my husband to the curb. J felt that no one needed nor wanted him. Then, I became unemployed in Oct which completely broke our marriage. We tried but we all we could do it fight. April 2015 I was forced by family to move out of state and then he was arrested.

I was so pissed at everyone but I knew what needed to be done to get his attention. It took 5 days before they would allow him calls. By that time we already had someone get into him to visit (Pastors do not have to be on any visit list) and money on his books! His whole world was gone and he finally hit his knees. It took this to bring my husband back to God. It took this for our youngest (the only one at home now) to find his way back to serving. It took this for me to find my strength and really learn how to trust in God . This is when I found SPWF. I tried to click with some people but I was still facing my demons and did not feel that I could help anyone. I was still crying daily and still hating everyone. It's been almost a year and now I can tell some people my story. I feel that I can now lift up others even when I am down.

Do I still cry? YUP! Do I still feel guillty? Sometimes. Is it any easier now? NOPE, I just choose fo make the best out of it. I still have children that want their dad. I still want my husband. I just choose to wake up every day in prayer. I choose to go to work everyday. I make a choice to be my best until my best friend can come home. I make the trip to Georgia (300 miles) once a month for a 30 min face to face (behind glass) visit. Because he is still in county we have video visits two days a week (between 2-3 30min each), and he calls daily. We have been working on a study together and it's really helping us open up in different ways. My advice is to hang in there and remember what Ro says, "every day is one day closer."

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  • Lili
    by Lili 10 months ago
    Hey how have you been ?
    and thank you for the welcome
    = )
  • Lili
    by Lili 1 year ago
    Name is Lili........wat are some creative letters you sent to loved ones ? I came on here to learn more how to show support and get ideas of more stuff I can send. Make friends really since we all can relate having a loved one in Prison.
  • Mandee
    by Mandee 1 year ago
    Hey darlin. I'm doing good just have a lot going on in my world. Hope all is well with you. Keep in touch
  • Mandee
    by Mandee 1 year ago
    Glad to hear you got to see him! Sorry to hear about your grandma darlin. Keep your head up. Message me sometime
  • Mandee
    by Mandee 1 year ago
    Hope you're doing ok.
  • Mandee
    by Mandee 1 year ago
    Thank you darlin. He's a dream come true! God blessed me with him!
  • Mandee
    by Mandee 1 year ago
    Hello!